When I embarked on this journey of helping others to heal I thought it was mostly about focusing externally through acts of service and kindness. However, the more I did the work, the more I learned and explored, the more I discovered that this purpose driven life in helping others had to first start with my own healing. From that place of recovery. I learned that it wasn't my job to "fix" everyone or control everything. I had struggled so much in my life aiming to be perfect so that I would be good enough, pretty enough, smart enough and successful enough to be loved and accepted.
Trigger warning:
Please be aware of possible emotions that may be triggered as you read my personal story. It is not my aim to trigger your pain and trauma but rather to share with you a bit about my own personal journey and how it has impacted and influenced the work that I do. If you prefer to skip past my story please do so now ❤️.
My story involves lots of bumps, scrapes and bruises. Lots of self-doubt, perfectionism, depression, anxiety, grief and loss, physical pain, bad choices, band-aids, place fillers and abusive relationships. It also involves a lot of great things like love, second chances, healing and recovery, good choices, life, kindness, grace and GOD! The painful things helped me to grow and learn. They gave me empathy, wisdom and strength. But it was the positive things that kept me going and led me out of the darkness.
My God given purpose is to turn the messes I have experienced into a message that will help you grow and heal. I battled and overcame and eating disorder that ravaged my mind and body for the better part of 12 years of my life. I have healed from tremendous and debilitating back pain that left me unable to walk for weeks at a time. Pain that convinced me my life was over and I would never be able to experience all I had ever dreamed of like children, walking, dancing and more. I healed from an autoimmune disease that I was told I would have for the rest of my life. I have grieved the loss of 2 of my babies through miscarriage. I have overcome crippling anxiety that left me breathless and so overcome with fear about taking the "right" next step. Fear about being able to protect myself and my children. Fear and anxiety that ruled my life.
So now that I have some street credibility... you can see that I am not just talking the talk but I am and have walked the walk. I may not have had the same life experiences as you but I've been down my own dark and twisted path that by the grace of God I have been able to learn from, heal and overcome. I come to you humbly, with grace, light and love to help you on YOUR journey out of the darkness.
